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Is it possible
Is it possible Is it possible to learn as much from a bad date as a good date? I think I have discovered the answer is yes! I won't get into to much detail about the date. But needless to say a alcoholic, single mother desperate for a father figure for her can stir a lot of emotion up. I won't judge her that's not my place. But what I will talk about is what it stirred up in me and that is a lot of emotion, things I had never really considered. The hardest one is that I may want someone in my life but that would have to be a fully honest and complete discussion that I am probably not sure I could be monogamous and with that I wouldn't expect her to be either, there are just needs that can't be met by a single partner. Second I want to know that some one wants me and only me on occasion is the hypocritical? I dunno, perhaps I am closer to poly than I am swinger but perhaps not close enough to either. I know that I will never not like sex and multiple partners, but as I said above perhaps a part of me realizes to borrow from our good friend Vixen I won't settle for anything less than awesome perhaps I just realize that now. I don't want someone doing what I want just because it fills a need for them I want a partner in crime and life. I am not sure how long this will be up before I just realize how insane I am for posting it? Don't compromise yourself! You are all you've got! |
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There are times I post something and want to immediately take it down. The thing is those are some of the same posts I continue to look back upon. For me life is about constantly learning and growing. When you stop doing this, why bother?? I still wonder if I would ever be able to be in a conventional relationship after having participated in the lifestyle.
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I often worry about similar things hun *hugs* Lxx
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Now why oh why would you do such a silly thing as to take this down? I've been all over the map in terms of relationships in all aspects. I just find now that I've gotten my kicks and took many things off my bucket/fuckit list, I really would like to have a partner in crime Whether or not it's a monogamous relationship...I don't know what it will be. But yeah..settling for less than awesome in a person isn't worth anything. Don't compromise yourself *says the girl who is compromising herself. do as I say, not as I do! I have no effing clue where I'm going and what I'm saying Vixn_Vella Its not me....It's you. And no...we cannot be friends
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